Imprisoned By Regrets

2 nights ago, i suddenly became emo as i contemplated on things that i wish i have done but didn't and how much i'm jealous of people who were able to do those things. i was really frustrated and suddenly realise that i was actually regretting over those things. i was so frustrated i actually thought that having a puff of ciggy wouldn't be so bad. chill, i don't smoke and never had. LOL. i ALMOST did though. instead, i thought expressing myself literaly would do me good and it did. here was the poem that i wrote that night. tell me what you think! :) oh yeah, no part of this poem may be reproduced in any form! anyway, i call this piece "Imprisoned By Regrets". enjoy!

Imprisoned By Regrets

 

I stare into the night with my eyes shut,
To the loudness of the silence, I listen,
Deliberating whether I should make a forward dart
Or turn back, undo the faux pas and amend.

But wait, time is more callous than any pain.
Nothing can be undone in her name.
I scream in hurt but my voice is a mute creature.
I hear the shriek of my past regrets matures
As far as I allow my ears to hear.

Like a ghoul, she creeps into my chamber,
Then, there stands a supercilious punisher,
Provoking my ultimate escape.
I extend my hand, to grasp her cape.

Our distance augments after my each impulsion.
My anger turns to frustration
In due time, to unreserved numbness.

Like death disguising itself as birth,
Like a mute faking sadness or a mirth,
Pretentious has its way with me.
Suddenly, she unlocks me with her key
My chamber breaks down into sands.
Overwhelmed, I step out, a free man.

Perplexed my heart, feels much lighter.
Rolling down my cheeks, tears, I shed.
Alas, the sound I have been yearning to hear,
The anthem of sovereignty over my ancient regrets.

Comments

[Edgar]

You know what I think? If you didn't tell me, I won't believe you wrote that poem. Coz it's so freaking awesome :)

Owh yeah, regrets and frustrations. I've gone through that. Time and prayers are the best medicine. And just appreciating every little blessings that God has showered upon us :)

heck, i'm starting to enjoy life in utp ordy. mainly because of the people and events. althou i won't go aussie, haha :P

[flibbertigibbet]

dude!!..u totally rocks!!..ur welcome ;)

[Jay Sean 杰胜]

thanks!!! gee i wish there are more comments here. X)

[Betho]

You rocks, jason!

[anisah]

jason on behalf of hajar..she said that she analysed your poem. The comment : 'See me.'

were you that frustrated?

[Zatyness]

yeah, regrets totally suck. but that's why i like to think 'carpe diem' and do things so that you won't regret not doing them in the future. of course, this should only apply to sensible things, heheh.

as for the poem, i like it! i like how it doesn't rhyme, and how the stanzas are not fixed in terms of the number of lines, it makes the pace quick and slow in a rhythmic way, like a person with jumbled up thoughts. and i like your choice of words, befitting with your 'state of mind' - complex and sort of in pain.

woops. dah ter-analyse sket. sorry, terbiasa from lit studies, heheheheh.

but i agree, emo times = good writing. usually. :P

[Jay Sean 杰胜]

weyh, it rhyms la! even dwane said so. =_=
anisah, yes i was that emo to actually write it. LOL
bet, thanks! u rock too.
X)

[seyra]

wow.

[MaJoRee]

wow..amazing.. ko frust smp can do dis poem?? huh..?!

[Zatyness]

it doesn't have a fixed/structured rhyming scheme, more like =P

[Jay Sean 杰胜]

yeah. i dont like fixed structure. i like more organic structure. u knw, organic... it's the new way to everything. :P with that said, the rhyming scheme here wud be abac, ddeee, ffgg, hhi, jjkkll, mnmn. there zaty! eat that! LOL. and guys, thanks for reading. :)

[Alicia Tan]

;) It works now .

Anyways , i do think this poem is amazing way better than whatever i'm studying at school for sure! Someone is going to be the modern shakespeare perhaps ?

But i got to say, very well written and like what the very first comment wrote : i'll never believe you wrote this if you didn't tell me . Because it was that good !

PS , i'm glad that you didn't smoke cause i might just hate you if you did .

[Ron'th]

whoa ... u rilli gud when playing wif words huh~ nicely done there my fav cousin ! juz like u said b4.. emotional pain is such a drain of energy.. so my advice... dont get involved in this emotional thingie over2 k..

lav the poem.. hate the writer !
heheheh

[Jay Sean 杰胜]

thanks alicia! stop overcompliment me. :)

ronth, babi punye budak. LOL. thanks! X)